I've been watching you for a while now and you give my
stomach butterfiles, the way it feels when you're falling in love with someone.
Radiate as you sit in the glow of the sun. I blush as I think about
holding you in my arms. Spring awakens scents that make my head
swim as I watch you live (play) so calmly in your own world.
I take a sip of my beer and fantasize about what you smell like.
Surely I could walk up and quickly bend down to smell your little head.
You would probably not even notice me.
Most of the things in my life as a 24-year old are dull
and deadly monotonous. But then I discover you!
I wonder what your name is and what you ate for breakfast.
Now, just now, you squinted against the sun with a golden smile all
over your perfect face. You, girl - you make me happy in this brief
moment. You have no idea. You just sit there.
How beautiful your hair is, and the dress - pink with flowers -
fits you perfectly. I want to show you the forest, hold your dirty little
hand in mine. Letting you ask me different things and I'd answer with
love in my heart. I almost feel like crying when I'm writing this.
The tears are there. I'm there! I don't know how to express myself,
but I would like to get to know you. You're so much younger than
me. When we're in the forest it gets darker and I'll give you my
heat. You'll feel a bit scared of the dark and I'll comfort you.
Then you surrender to me.
Will I ever be a father?
Will you ever be a mother?
and hug you as hard as I can and roll around with you on the ground.
Girl, we'll laugh and I'll look deep into your eyes and while all my questions
are answered with a childish, sensual gaze you fade down - fade away...
All the anxiety, all the despair and resignation I've every felt with a liberating
"I like you".
I love you!